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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
As the year dwindles to merely days before the new year begins, what has 2006 brought me?
First word that comes to the mind is despair.
Despair in how things are progressing, when people who promised change in themselves have not done so in coming to three years.
Despair when an offered hand is rejected and seen as the ultimate nemesis.
Despair when things turns rough, dying is seen as the salvation.
Despair which leads to depression, but having the need to overcome it.
What about the time in between the despair?
What has the laughter contributed, if the feeling of despair is always at bay; that it may be recalled up in a moments’ instance?
What is the soul’s salvation?
Where’s the break in the never-ending cycle?
Or can it merely be disappointment disguised as despair?
Or can these thoughts be a cry in the dark, presumably seeking a hand, a shoulder, an ear?
What’s portrayed on the outside isn’t a match to the turbulence on the inside.
Despair IS.. as despair is, I guess.
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posted by dee3 @ 15:58,
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How time flies!!!
Yes, time DO literally fly.
Lotsa things that could’ve been blogged, lotsa thoughts that could’ve been put to paper.
Lotsa angst that should’ve dissolved over time.
Lotsa angst still in the heart.
Lotsa old promises made but are still not kept.
Lotsa tears with intermittent spurs of laughter.
Lotsa anxiety still to be overcome.
Lotsa insecurities amid the show of bravado.
It’s past Xmas, and another new year approaches.
Are we still gonna be stuck in the same old rut, or will the supposedly new year brings much changes?
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posted by dee3 @ 15:36,
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